- Live everyday honestly
- Be thankful for the big and small things in life
- Not be angry find happiness in everyday
- Be kind to every living thing with all my actions
- Encourage others around me to be the best they can
- To try everything in my power not tot worry or over think (this is the biggest challenge)
Thursday, 20 April 2017
Saturday, 15 April 2017
It's been ages but I'm back!
|Something I'm working on. Something for me or not?|
"I don't have asthma attacks unless I'm unwell"
"I get plenty of time to get my inhaler"
"I can use my blue inhaler and I get sorted quite quickly"
"I only ever had an ambulance called because my asthma wasn't under control" or so I thought!
The long and short of that horrid morning is I didn't listen to MY body, to it telling me I NEEDED help NOW, to it saying NO this isn't right and sort it out NOW. Like I mentioned I have been taken by ambulance to hospital because of my asthma in the past, mainly when I'm unwell and it all kicks up or when I was first diagnosed and it wasn't under control but this was nothing like any of the other times no matter how bad it was. This time I lost consciousness, only briefly but I did. This time I'm very lucky I'm still here able to write this. This time it's scared me, frightened me, terrified me. This time I've learnt that ASTHMA isn't something to be messed with. ASTHMA can kill and if the ambulance and friends (staff) around me hadn't acted so quickly I probably wouldn't be here to write this now. No I'm not over playing my hand here I am very, very lucky things turned out the way that it did the other option isn't worth thinking about.
|It could be anyone with asthma at any time, please take it seriously.|
The other side of all this is that it's taken far longer to get over this than I expected, it's made life very hard, It's effected every part of me both physically and mentally. I owe everything to the people who helped me that day, I owe lots to my amazing family, my husband has been my rock. If you know me you k now how lucky I am to have Mr W as my husband he's always done loads more than the average husband, put us before all his own needs, done his up most to make sure that we have everything we need. This experience has frightened us both, he has done everything for me and made sure that my recovery has happened as best it could. When I've struggled to get up and down stairs he has cleaned the downstairs loo that we don't use so I can access it easily and without a hill of stairs to climb. Made sure that I had people visiting when he had to go back to work so I wouldn't be on my own 'just in case'. He rang regularly to check on my well being. Made jokes to lift my spirits. Came to appointments with me to support me. Listened to me as I had issues being out the house on my own by making me calm and reassuring me. He has been my everything. Would I of got through this with out him? Yes. Would I have got through this and come out the other side as well without him? No without a shadow of a doubt I wouldn't of. My Mr W I love you and am eternally grateful for all you do for us x
If you've got this far I'm grateful but there is other people I need to thank for helping me the last few weeks. Friends, lots and lots of friends. Something like this makes you realise how lucky and loved you are as a person. Many of my friends have been another rock for me. When the anxiety of being out on my own they've came and checked on me, talked me through the situation, made me go out and break my safety blankets. They've unexpectedly dropped in to check on me bringing beautiful surprises with them to lift me spirits. Cards... lots and lots of cards. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all you've done xxx
|Cake? Cake makes the world a better place!|
So what is next? I have the rest if the Easter holidays at home with my family spending time together (when Big teen isn't at work) I'm not going to be beaten by my anxiety or the experience I've been through stop me going forward, no matter how hard it is. I'm going back to work, I'm going to make the most of every opportunity given to me, I'm going to continue being positive, friends and family are going to be a huge part of my life and we will be spending much time together xxx
|Some of mothers day flowers, I feel very loved.|
So that's it for now. I promise I will be back very soon
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Thursday, 12 January 2017
Sorry, it's been ages. Life as always seems to have run away with me. So what's new?
Big teen and little teen have started their new school years, both have had rocky times but hopefully they're more settled now and the rocky parts are smoothing out.
Mr Wonderful is as wonderful as ever and working hard to make sure we are all happy and all taken care of. There's lots of times in life we take our other halves for granted, I'm as guilty as anyone else for this, but Christmas was definitely his time to shine again. He made sure we all had a fabulous time and all felt cherished. He as always puts us before himself and for this I'm always grateful.
Me? The Christmas holiday couldn't come quick enough but unfortunately it flew by far to quickly too. The best part of holidays is always finding myself again. I crocheted LOTS! There were no arguments as nobody was over tired or grumpy and life was good. We saw family, we partied, we spent time together doing stuff. It was fabulous!
So now we are back to reality, cranky teens who have started hiding in their rooms as they feel frazzled by their stressful days. Mom and Dad tired and dreaming of holidays/weekends. Planning changes for the house and holidays hopefully with lots of sun......the list goes on.
So what have you been up to?
Saturday, 30 July 2016
So I've done lots in the couple of days and I feel accomplished. Wednesday I went for a walk with one of my dogs. It wasn't planned other than just we were going out for a walk. The sun was out and I wanted to have time to think so the local nature reserve was where we ended up, a canopy of trees blocking us away from the rest of the world, paths we've walked a thousand times but are different each time you step through them, large watered areas that are slowly turning into bogs as thick as chocolate fudge, bugs whizzing past and bloody mosquitoes!!! I loathe those things and was fortunate enough only to be bitten once but oh my it hurts! We ambled through greeting other walkers enjoying the peace and Lillie, the dog, enjoying the freedom to just run.
The area of the nature reserve is part of the mining area, which is all around where we live, This is the cave, I've convinced myself and others, has an metal ore of some description in it as it has a green like weathered copper in it. I really like this area of the woods and I can't explain why but I do.
The Trolls Bridge
Can you tell I work in a school? The wonderment just a few white lies these walk ways can cause. The evil troll under the bridge is lurking waiting for a juicy child to munch so stamp and shout as loud as you can to scare him and make him think your not a child. Whilst walking I found myself thinking of new tales to spin, they get wise to our tales and we need to keep adding new spins to keep their imaginations alive. I LOVE MY JOB can you tell?
The log pile twisted and snarled but full of life when you look and listen closer, easily missed as we stomped through. Again my head started to think of new tales for the new year coming up. After a short walk we crossed the bridge and found ourselves at the canal. It's so tranquil my only wish was that others would treat it with the respect it deserves and take their rubbish home with them!
New life was all around as we walked which is just beautiful to see.
Plus a swan? I don't think I've ever seen one there before. So elegant and regal with the way it glided down the canal. How can this all be just within waking distance?
How lucky are we?
The afternoon brought time with big teen, little teen was still away with her friends family. We had no real plans and all the afternoon to ourselves. We headed to the Hollybush, a local garden center. I have been dropping hints (hope your reading this HUBBY) for a garden swing. I've wanted one for years and still haven't got one and the weather up to this point had been amazing. We tested out a few and found this beauty...
Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha obviously this is far too much for what I would like but they do have one in there that I really like. We went to our local Range store too and mooched about. The time we spent together I realised was precious as going out and hanging out and having a giggle are coming to the end. Being with your mom isn't cool...
Last but not least baby teen is home. Gone is the quite and thank goodness for that. We've all missed her and loved listening to her tales from her few days away. Thank you Wootons for having her. xxx
Till next time
Monday, 25 July 2016
Saturday, 23 July 2016
Thursday, 21 July 2016
Today is the first day of the summer holiday and I've slept in, as I imagine lots of school staff have. Then I've cleaned, cleaned and cleaned some more.
I have set myself goals for this holiday as usually by the end of the summer holiday I end up regretting not doing more. So my immediate plans for this holiday are;
- Create a blog ✔
- Deep clean the house ✅
- Finished any craft projects (WIPs) I've got left to do.
- Sort the garden
- Meet up with friends I've not seen for a while (hope they still want to see me)
- Sort my zen den and use it!
- Spend time with my teenagers doing stuff. Just us no one else.
- Be a family doing things that make us laugh.
- Discover something new as often as possible.
- Meditate often and unrushed.
- Be happy!
As you can see not much.... I'm hoping to rediscover myself this holiday too, often when I get caught up in life I start to feel spread a bit too thin. I hope that makes sense? I am far too hard on my self so I've been told and I'm hoping to like myself more. I feel truly blessed to have a large community of friends around me who in general don't judge me or make me look an idiot when I can make such a fabulous idiot of myself.
Tonight I start on my mission to be happy, it's curry night with my work family. I can imagine the rolling eyes, it's work they're only colegues not 'family or friends' but where I work its different to that. We're often commented on by people visiting that we are just that one big family. OK we don't all get along with all our families all the time and yes some member wind you up more than other's but that's what patience and tolerance are all about. We all have that prefered aunt or uncle or the ones that we talk to when we have to but we all get on. That's what life is about. We all bring something to the table to make our lives more enriched, without each one of us or family doesn't work. This has been an especially hard end of term for me as a work family member has left to start fresh at a new school. I'll be honest I stuck my head in the ground for ages, months in fact. But it's felt like someone has put their foot on the accelerator and the last week flew by. I returned home to my family an emotional wreck yesterday. I refuse to get so emotional tonight, tonight is about celebration a job well done, fabulous friendships and congratulating everything we've achieved this year.
So I'm sat here writing this just before I jump in the shower, nervous excitement fluttering in my tummy as the first day of my holiday is half way through. I've managed to tick 2 things off my list and I'm starting on the finding me and happiness.